Thursday, June 9, 2011

I have to write this!

I just have to write this, even though I've shouted out loud to others but I just have to shout again here!

Ok, the story begins like this.

I had a Physic's experiment's test this morning at 9am. Unluckily me, I got a question on electric, and I had to search the phase angle of 2 sinusoidal signs. Great, I couldn't find my phase angle on the oscilloscope! I was not sure if I had set up my circuit correctly actually. So I asked my professor. She said if we asked her during the exam, she will deduct 1 mark for each question. But I couldn't care anymore, that thing already wasted my 30 mins! And it left only 1 hour to go. So I asked. But do you know what she answered? She said, "Maybe." @.@??!!

Well, at least she reminded me about the button "Autoset" which actually helped me during the "Finding My Phase Angle" process. But I still couldn't find it!

So I gave up, I started the 2nd experiment, which was much more easier. But, it required explanation, and I don't know any, and I left it blank~~~

Return to the oscilloscope.

I don't know what I did, I just pressed anything on the oscilloscope that I could, and finally I found my phase angle. But the value is not stable. Again, I couldn't care anymore! It left only 45 mins! So I just simply take a value from the keep-varying-value that looked nice to me. Finally, after some measurement, and towards the end, the value stabilized. Quickly, I rushed to the computer to key in my values. And of course, the graph that I obtained wasn't good. (I simply took the value at the debut). So I changed them, I INVENTED THEM, under the eyes of my professor! I wasn't thinking at that time, now I am regret. I should have left it that way and add in my comment saying that the error comes from the instability of the oscilloscope or from the wrong way of taking the measurements.

Anyway, it was time to print out my graph, my modified graph. But that lousy printer was striking again! It didn't print! Then the professor came and touched this and that. I checked the time on the computer. 10 more minutes!

OMG! I hadn't write anything on my report! What to comment? Ok, think think. I couldn't think! Ok ok, just write the phase angle increases with the frequency then decreases. Ok, what else? Oh, I don't know.

"Il vous reste 5 mins!" I know, don't remind me.

Finally, the printer printed my graph. Ok, calculate the quality's factor. OK. Calculate the resistance. Ok. Comment. Oh, I DON"T KNOW!

"Allez, allez, rendez vos copies! Sinon.."

Oh no! Please stop shouting. Ok, give a title to my graph, write down my name. Ok done!

The next group had entered. Quick, I had to rush out from the laboratory. So many papers on my desk and I just grabbed them and rushed out.

And I started to talk and complained to my friends. I didn't write any comments, I changed the values, I didn't calculate the error of the theory and experiment! (And I even wrote down the formula at the beginning of the test). NOO! this is a terrible and horrible one!

30 mins gone. It was 11am. I was at my friend's house, still complaining about my test. And how it would affect my average marks. I opened my bag, thought want to check something. And I saw something scary! My table of values!!! I didn't pass it up!! AHHH!

I quickly rushed to the lab(luckily my friend's house is just beside our school..hey, that was not the point). And I entered silently, hoping my professor wouldn't see me. I saw my classmates were doing their experiment, and I didn't say hi. I didn't see my professor, I was glad, actually. But then, she was at her office, just beside the table where we put our papers. Cool!

Oops! She saw me. Smiling awkwardly, I walked in, handed in my table of values.

"Je n'ai pas rendu ma feuille. Je viens de m'apercevoir."

Her face suddenly turned down, just in a twist of time, it became "black". No exaggerating!

Coldly, she said "Ok." Not looking at me.

I was freaked out. I wanted to say sorry but I wasn't dare to stay any longer and I just fled away~~Oh, at least I should say sorry..

How silly I am! I couldn't imagine how many marks would I receive for my test. Why was so I so panic? I didn't stop and think at all during the test. I just kept going into it stupidly.

Next year I have to do better. Have more confidence. Be more seriousness

I couldn't loss any marks for my average anymore. And that average will affect my CV to enter Year 3.

Ok, tomorrow, my last paper. Jia You!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

My Harry Potter!

Oh My Goodness! I just know that Harry Potter 7 Part 2 will be released in Malaysia the 14th July, and I'll be off to Taiwan from 13th July!! I won't be there for the premiere!!! I planned to buy the 1st day's ticket mah~~:(((((

This is so unfair! I've missed so many films of the series in cinema, FINALLY, I have chance to go into the cinema this time, and it's the last chance, and now it's gone~~

And I'll only be back on 21st July, will it still be on screen that time? Probably yes, it's HARRY POTTER, it will be on cinema more then 1 week.

But at that time, for sure all my friends will have watched it, who will go and watch it with me? I don't want to be alone...it's not fun to watch a movie alone,( I think~~), even though it's Harry Potter~~

Haih, never mind la..worries change nothing. Everything's gonna be ok! Be positive!

It's better if you worry more about your coming exams:)

Thursday, May 26, 2011

梅花三弄

最近,我走火入魔似的,脑子里全是这首歌的词。

“红尘自有痴情者,
莫笑痴情太痴狂。
若非一番寒彻骨,
哪得梅花扑鼻香。
问世间情为何物,
直教人生死相许。
看世间多少故事,
直销魂梅花三弄。”

-琼瑶

太美了!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Apparently my life in France is not that boring, i was just tooo boring during the last holidays. But overall, it's nice and fun and sometimes happening. Yea, kinda. :)

Study jia you!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Untitled

It's so hard to say no.

Pisces, always indecisive. This is depriving my peace of my heart. Even though sometimes I'm quite sure what I want, but I don't decide until the last moment. I have so many worries and concerns. Mostly, I scared people will get hurt and I want things to be perfect, well planned, everything goes smoothly, on the track. I can't give a firm answer until I know for sure everything's gonna be fine. And so sometimes when people ask me if I'm agreed or not, especially when it's a group work, I seemed lost to give an answer, but I am actually thinking, and so I answer ambiguously because I feel the tension that people's waiting for my answer. But at the end, it turns out they are not being confident with my answer.

So now I want to change this bad attitude. Despite people is waiting for me, I want to take my time to consider and analyse things properly before giving out my opinions, let their waiting time be worthy rather then giving the impression that I'm not contributing.

This is out of topic from what I wanted to say initially, but never mind...

Saturday, May 14, 2011

媽媽老了 (转载)

媽媽老了

媽媽老了,這是早就知道的事實。已是第三次做壽了,能不老嗎?但原來這只是頭腦知道,心裡壓根兒沒認同過,一直到最近回家才不得不承認。媽媽炒的菜怎麼再也不清脆可口了,分不出是菜湯還是炒菜。媽媽的廚藝一直來都是家人的最愛,雖然偶爾失手過,但還沒吃厭過。以前學炒菜時,媽媽說最重要的是掌握火候,還有千萬不要加水,加入少許蒜頭即可炒出一道清脆可口的菜肴。可是如今,我看到的是媽媽放入青菜後,隨即是加入一碗水,不像是炒菜,倒像是在燜菜。吃在口里,食不知味,QQ的口感沒了,熟悉的味道全沒了。看在眼裡,痛在心裡,心裡完全知道這是怎麼一回事,因為媽媽再也無法咀嚼清脆的青菜了。

媽媽一生辛勞,養育九個子女,即使是挺個大肚子,依然砍柴挑水幹粗活。實在不願相信那個曾經走在你身旁為你擋風遮雨的背影有天在你不警覺時竟會落在你身後,而你必須在人群中搜尋她的蹤影。

不願接受那個曾經緊握你小手越過馬路的雙手有天需要你扶一把,等她一會兒,耐心地牽她過馬路。

不願接受前一刻明明彼此才互相起勁談話,才一會兒,她竟然坐著呼呼地睡著了。做子女的不願接受母親會老的事實,想一輩子做母親眼中的小孩,當永遠的孩子,享受母親的呵護。忘了自己已經身為人母,依然沉醉在記憶中兒時的媽媽,那個不知何為疲憊,時刻精力充沛,終日為家人奔波的身影。硬朗敏捷的身子再也無法抵擋歲月的侵蝕,真是歲月催人老啊!

身為最小且最遲出嫁的女兒,今年終於有機會第一次替媽媽拜壽,心裡祈禱這不是唯一的一次。我對媽媽說,希望你健健康康,長命百歲,因為我希望往後還能為你拜壽。媽媽感慨地說不知是否還能等到另一個十年,同輩的只剩下兩三個了。對一個年長者,能健康的再活十年確實是個奢侈的夢想,這何嘗不也是子女的一個奢望呢?

回娘家,回娘家,實在不敢想像沒有娘在的娘家,回去時會是甚麼苦澀滋味?出嫁的女兒可以回娘家實在是一種幸福。有天這種幸福感只能在記憶中去追溯了。

冬陽

Saturday, May 7, 2011

I hope that I can find someone who also has the passion towards the music style or the genre of songs that I like. :)