Wednesday, November 10, 2010

It's been a long time that I didn't update my blog.
Well, student's life is tiring. I have lotza lotza exams n lotza lotza homework which haven't been done.
These 3 days, I had 3 exams of 5 subjects.

1st day: statistic of fluide

The teacher is so geng that she gave all the same questions( expect the 1st part, where i am not sure). But, I didn't study properly the questions, but, I was able to give the right answer but not in detail. While, hope she wont be so stict...got hope to get 14/20 i guess...

2nd day: EAF
Maths

Damn!! I didn't even study the demonstration part!! I didn't know the demonstration could be so important. That carries more then 50% of the paper..haih..probably will fail..well, maybe 7/20..sad~~

Chemistry

This is better, got 2 or 3 confusions, but maybe still can get 14/20

Mechanic

This is never good. I always with the questions. Hmm..maybe 10/20

3rd day : stereo

This is sad too. I was confused with all the theories and now(after the test),I only found some informations in the internet, i should have online yesterday!! i guess 10/20..but should be better!! stereo is not hard(but confusing) 10/20, i guess I would the bottom ones of the class..Seriously, SHOULD BE BETTER! LEE HUI XUAN!

Jia you la hui xuan.
Next week got test, next next week gt testS, next next next week got test, next next etc...

Endless tests...

Bu never mind, cheers!! U can do it!! fight with a bright spirit n a great smile!! hahahahaha!!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Imagine new lonely life

Just got a news from my future classmates. He will be staying in the residence gay lussac, which is different from my residence. Haih~ even though I already knew that this would happen, but still when I was confirmed, I was still filling dissapointed and sad.

That meeans, I will need to walk to school and walk back homw alone everyday! and when i got problems with my study, it wouldn't be easy to discuss with him already. But actually, the true problem is that during winter, it will be dark and cold, and I'll be walking all alone on the streets with a small torchlight...Oh! Imagaine that!

Haih..what to do. That's life. I bet many of my friends or my seniors were living like future-me for years already over there. This is part of my challenges that I gotta face. Be brave!

You can geh!! Jia you!

Friday, August 6, 2010

There's a kind of person. They secretly hope that someone will do something for them, most of the time it's a small matter, e.g. ask how are you doing recently, offer a coffee or tea, ask to be careful when crossing roads etc, those little caring actions. When their wish wasn't fulfilled, they will upset with that person secretly in their heart, thinking why couldn't he/she do that, while making excuses for them.

Isn't that funny and sarcastic?

So, to prevent this, stop expecting people to do things.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I really dunno how to write this post, too many stuffs in my mind now, and it's disorder.

Really hope that you'll know everything in my mind just like that.

Why there isn't any machine to read people's mind?

Haih...:(

I just want a greeting from you, a message, anything...

Monday, August 2, 2010

无事不登三宝座

When your phone rings or you receive a message suddenly, and it shows that it is from a friend that you have not contact for a long time, beware!

It's true that we shouldn't 以小人之心度君子之腹. But, this is the reality. If they ask for some help that we can offer, it doesn't matter. But if it beyonds what we can, "I'm sorry, I can't." But, sometimes, it is not easy to get ourselves out even when we refuse or they don't understand us.

This is part of the lessons that we need to learn while we grow, everyone of us. How to prepare yourself to an uncomfortable situation without breaking the relationship. Even maybe the person is not that important for you, now, but contacts are very important. Noone can be suceed without others' help.

Keep a contact! Who knows you'll be the one who visit people's三宝座。

Friday, July 23, 2010

米修米修!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Oh no...

Shit! Die! My God! Leehuixuan, you were just being too chong dong!! U better make sure that everything will gonna be fine...

Tian a tian a!! Haih...

Never mind la..ok de la..ok de la...nvm nvm....jia you!!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

M'sia I'm coming!! hahaha

3rd post tonight..haha!! Can't help it, too much stuff in my mind now..

My class will end next friday, so even though teachers are teaching important things, and I don't understand, but I am too lazy to study them n understand them now.

Plus, later I have many stuffs to do:

8/7 BBQ at villa (last BBQ with my friends a.k.a angoumoisins....)

13/7 Say goodbye to my apartment...n La Sit

15/7 Go to Rennes, my new city^^

16/7 Visit my new university ENSCR

maybe will shop a bit during the sales..hehe

20/7 Take plane go back to Malaysia lo!! Wowhow!! hahaa!!

21/7 Reache m'sia happily..hahahaha

I got so many things to do in M'sia. Spend time with my family and friends, of coz!! n Angie too^^ wanna eat this and that, go here and there, do lotza things...1 month, enough ma??



BUT, I need to settle some problems 1st. Set things with UPS, make sure I can safely send and receive my stufffs in Rennes, go to CAF n make sure I can still receive my money, change the address with my bank, and SFR and national geography also, stop the EDF..walau! so many things to do before going back to m'sia...gambateh lo^^

Sunday, June 27, 2010

I'm sorry that I have missed the Father's Day...I'm so sorry, dad!

I love you, dad!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Finalement, je suis capable d'écrire un texte en français.

Il y a un an que je suis arrivée en France. J'étais une fille innocence, avec la tête mal développée, vivait comme rien a changé, je me rassurais que tout allait bien, ne t'inquiétait pas.

En fin, je ne pouvais plus déguisée. Ma famille me manquait trop et que je sentais toute seul.
Heureusement, ma famille, mes amis de Port Dickson et quelques amis d'ici m'ont aidé beaucoup, m'ont donné beaucoup de courage! Merci à vous! Je vous aime beaucoup!

Je vais quitter Angoulême bientôt et partir à Rennes, ma nouvelle ville. Qu'est-ce qui va se passer après? Il y aura moins d'amis qui vont être avec moi dans la classe, mais ce n'est pas grave, il y a encore des seniors qui me traitent gentiment, et ma famille et mes amis seront toujours là!

Courage, Hui Xuan!

P/s :en fait, j'ecris n'importe quoi...je ne sentis pas si triste, juste veux essayer mon niveau de mon français, mais qui sait, je ne peux pas encore décrire concrètement ce que je voulais dire. Gambateh!! Tu peux y arriver un jour!!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

I miss you...

Miss you! Miss you!!^^

Hey, u!
How can u affect my emotions so easily?
How can you make me happy and sad or even angry so easily??
How can you occupy my mind just like that?

Sometimes I wanna give up, but I couldn't, cause deep inside my heart, I don't want. I wanna give a try...
Sometimes I wonder, if we think too much, if we too scared of getting hurt, that's why we still couldn't decide..

Anyway, jiayou!!^^ Hope this month will never end...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

My god! Third time already in 3 days...

This is not fun at all...

Jia you jia you!!^^

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Death or distance?

Time,

we short of it.

Day by day,

the time that we have is "tick-tack-ing" away

We all know,

one day,

people around us today,

will leave us tomorrow.

To avoid being sad,

we hide up our feelings,

wait it to fade away themselves.

But,

the power of love is too strong,

that the feelings show.

So,

we couldn't care no more for tomorrow,

and,

we learn to appreciate right now


Friday, May 28, 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010

:P

Recently, I've changed my mind a lot about relationships. Last time, I couldn't imagine how 2 people can live together, and I didn't want to try, or maybe not dare to try.( i always got friends got hurt)

But, friends around me told me that we have to take risk to have happiness. And, maybe I'm influenced by the taiwan drama (maybe it's too dramatic, but somehow, some dialogs have affected me.)

So, I think I wanna take the chance. Hide no more. Refuse no more...^^


P/S :Let's jia you together ba, if u are thinking the same as me.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I know it's hard, but let's fight it together!

I love you, my sis!!

We'll give you strength whenever you need it!!^^

Thursday, April 29, 2010

其实,当知道要离家出国时,就应该要有心理准备,就该了解,再回来后,人事物,不会是依旧,自己将不会存在任何一人的生活点滴中,与大家的记忆中,有了个不明的时代跨越。

好想知道,家里的新车,长什么样子;好想知道,妈妈的新菜色,好不好吃;好像知道,哥哥在外的家,是不是一样温暖;好像知道,爸爸是否有减少工作量;好像知道,爷爷的身子有没有依然硬朗;好像知道,朋友们过得好不好,在朋友圈子里,有没有觉得一样快乐,或更甚;好像知道,Angie,它还记得我吗?

或许不舍得扔的那双破鞋,现在已不在了;或许门锁换了,不会开启了;或许家具摆设换了,要学习重新适应;或许院子里,多了几盆盆栽;或许爸爸的发鬓,更白了;或许与老朋友,从无话不谈,到欲言又止了;或许曾经的高谈阔论,如今却是没了话题;或许他们会改变我记忆里的他们;或许我也在他们的脑海里上演蜕变;或许,大家,还是我熟悉的大家,还是会给我温暖。

在月历上,都已打了那么多的勾,我却还是无一日,怀念着当时的笑声与泪滴,想念着陪我成长的朋友,思念着在家等我的老爸与老妈。

真的好像再听一听那平静的海浪声,Angie 的叫音,爸爸妈妈碎碎念的声音,哥哥的歌声,朋友的欢笑声,让我知道,我还是属于你们的一部分。

是否,波德申里还有我一些些的痕迹?

Monday, April 26, 2010

It's actually ironic, when our very very good friends don't treat us like a good friend, but with hatred.

Isn't it?

Not that I have my own experience( or maybe, I'm not sure), but how could it be??

At the 1st place, how can we smile or laugh while in the heart core, a big knife is hidden?

I couldn't understand...

Stabbing behind people, my god! Worse!! If anything, please la, say it out face to face, if not, swollen it...we are not kids anymore..

Plus, if it happens while we were young, wait, how could it be?? I thought children should be nourished with pure love?

Call me naive..

Good night!

Friday, April 23, 2010

My 60th Post

It has been almost 1 month that I didn't update my blog...what's new now??

So I have chosen my choices of my future universities :
a) ENSC Rennes
b) INSA Rouen
c) INSA Toulouse

Of coz, I hope that I could get my 1st choise, ENSC Rennes. But, it's hard to get in there, so most probably would get into INSA Rouen. Anyway, those 3 are not bad...my destiny is really in people's hand now...

Besides, I visited Amsterdam and Brussels with my sister and her boyfriend, Siang's.
It was indeed a wonderful trip!! Relaxing, calm, and I learnt many new things.

Do you know that thousands of people in Amsterdam live in boats on the rivers? Amazing, isn't??!!

And of course, I've passed a precious moment with my sis.
Amsterdam(exclu the city, refering the villages around ^^) is beautiful!!
If I have extra time and money, I'll make another visit!



At Zaanse Schans, see the river? see the windmill?



At Keukenhof garden, where the seduction of the flowers are spreading around.



A little boy, sitting inside the famous wooden shoes, wondering if one day, he could fit in..^^

Saturday, March 27, 2010

^^

Living in this world for 19 years already.

I've nothing to be proud of, except being my dad's and my mum's daughter..^^

Thankyou for bringing me to this world...

I love you!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

L.O.V.E

I'm sorry that I've pushed you away.

I'm sorry that I can't let you in.

I'm sorry that I didn't give the chance.

I feel insecured...

Give me some confidence, if you believe it...


Friday, March 5, 2010

寻找曾经拥有的,单纯的心

小学四年级的时候,考试拿了第二名,掉了一名,但我并没因此而伤心,还记得在家里大声地说 :“ 一年级拿第一;二年级拿第二;三年级有拿第一;今年又第二。 那明年第一,后年第二,就能有很美的一,二, 一,二 的编排啦!”

刚巧,哥哥在那一年,对自己的成绩并不怎么满意,跟爸妈谈了一会儿,就哭了。

爸爸便说:“为什么要为成绩哭呢?我非常欣赏慧璇的态度,只要自己对自己有个交代,排名是怎么样,都不重要了。"

那时已在床上准备入眠的我,听到了从客厅里传来爸爸朗朗的声音,嘴角上扬,带着笑容,渐渐沉睡。。。

但今天,曾经开开心心读书的我,已慢慢消失。。。

考试成绩的每一分,是对我如此的重要。失去一分,就等于从梦想退了一步。

何谓梦想?此时,我的梦想,是考上我想要的大学。这一切一切,断定于考试成绩。

成绩和名次或许未能划上等号,但这一次,却是不同,名次也沾上了重要位置。这是何等系统?让莘莘学子们,都辛苦了。。。

或许分数是好的,名次是不错的,但压力也是沉重的。 曾经上扬的嘴角,被紧锁的眉头取代了,带着不安的心情,辗转难眠。。。

除了如此,自己也对爸爸心中单纯的小孩的抹灭,感到一丝丝的惭愧。。。

如今,为何心中有杂念? 为何渐渐遗忘被教学的道理?

但是,就重要的是,为何人,可以是那么的复杂?

忘了看看自己的反射的我,其实,又能凭什么,去点评别人呢?

”色即是空,空即是色“ 何时才能明了?


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

My 18th Year

Finally, today is my final day of my 18th year...

What I have done during this year?
February (from 24th)

  • passed my birthday during National Service, and fell into the lake 2 time on that day
  • Syquina, Yanping, Yenleen, Chuiping and Rafidah came to visit me in camp to celebrate my birthday, and my parents too! of course! was very happy^^ thx girls!
March

  • released from NS
  • got my SPM result, started to apply this and that
  • entered HELP, got to know many kind and nice friends^^
April

  • ended my study life in HELP and student life in KL
  • went to INTEC, Shah Alam (boring place)
  • got to know the friends who will accompany for these 6 years
  • bought my 1st baju kurung
May

  • learned my 1st french word "Bonjour!"
  • learned my 1st french phrase "Ca va?" (lol)
  • busy preparing my luggage
  • had farewell with my dearest secondary school's friends and also my HELP's friends
  • had my 1st time hanging in Midvalley till almost midnight with my friends
June

  • stepped foot in France, got disappointing by the old style of architecture(now only know French people like to preserve old buildings, they love it! not a bad thing, actually)
  • saw many new things, learned a lot of interesting thing..
  • cooked for the 1st time
  • picnic under the hot sun during afternoon! (will never do that again)
  • talked with French in English, was so hard to communicate with them
July

  • the seniors went back to M'sia, envied them
  • visited Paris and also the marching ceremony on 14th July for their National Day (never did that in M'sia)
August

  • realized that the summer could be so HOT!!
  • tried to eavesdropping the people while they were talking, but never success (my french is too bad d..haha)
September

  • celebrated Hari Raya with my friends at Angouleme for the 1st time
  • started to miss home...:(
  • cut my finger...aiyo!
  • wishing to have my scientific class started (french class sometimes is boring...)
  • started to fall in love with french patisserie..yummy!!^^
October

  • visited Marseille, Nice and Monacco (wish to go back to Nice again^^)
  • my sis came to visit me^^finally we met after 2 years...
  • prepared flan as her birthday cake, but..was not successful :( sorry~~
  • we walked around Angouleme and we visited Bordeaux^^(love the moment!!)
November

  • my parents and my sis came^^
  • realized that autumn could be so COLD!
  • my mum caught flew but my dad was ça va, my sis? no need to talk about her la..stayed in a place 2 times colder then Angouleme, not a problem for her^^
  • got beaten by a donkey..ouch!!
  • tasted wine...bitter! (but now ok d^^)
  • went to a distillery to see the "making of..." wine..lol~~
  • got a lil bit drunk after drinking one glass of Pineau with high speed (lol~~thought it's a vector)
December

  • went to London, love the night view~~
  • went to Sheffield, had a very good time with my sis and Siang's
  • hope the time could stay at the moment while we were talking~~^^
  • passed my 31th Dec with her and her housemates
  • drank cocktail for the 1st time...it was nice!!
January

  • went to the International Festival of Comics ( saw the original piece of One Piece)
  • was not so excited, though~
  • took part in a drawing competition for children..lol~~
  • went to ski at Pyrenees, realized that skiing is so HARD!! (for me la..others could ski at black piste(highest level), so geng!!)
  • whole body was painful for 3 days ( 2nd suffer after the Xueji camp..lol~~)
February (till 23th)

  • went to a museum of Cognac (ohya, for those who love wines, Angouleme is a region where Cognac is highly cultivated, in fact here is the origin)
  • went to La Rochelle to celebrate Chinese New Year
  • realized how much I love talking when I want..lol~~
  • started to really worry about my future university, what if my result is not good enough?? haih~~
  • realized how he acts recently...
Basically, I've passed my 80% of my 18th year in France...
France a France, I need to stay with you for another 5 years..will u let me to have a good result?? (lol~~suddenly talk about this, not related also..haha)^^

Hope tomorrow will be a better day! Hope my family will be happy as always!! Hope my friends will be happy too!!!

Nitez~~^^

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Proudly present...!!^^

Finally!!
After using 3 nights' time, my 2nd video has born..!!

The theme is, my top 10 favorite love songs (till now), and they are all sang by 2^^

From choosing the songs, downloading the videos, changing the format, downloading the converter( illegally..hehe), cutting the videos, arranging them, publishing them etc etc etc......

Woah! Really used up lotza lotza my time.

Plus the Windows Movie Maker, I don't know why, was not working properly at the end, making me have to change to to use Windows Live Movie Maker, have to re-edit..haih...and the quality is not that good..

But never mind la...finally!!^^

Damn happy now!! Lalalala~~~

Enjoy la guys!!^^


  1. 光良 ft 江美琪 - 对你有感觉
  2. 古巨基 ft 梁咏琪 - 许愿
  3. 吴宗宪 ft 温岚 - 屋顶
  4. Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat - Lucky
  5. 光良 ft 梁静如 - 只能这样抱着你
  6. 光良 ft 卫兰 - 童梦
  7. 阿Ben ft 顺子 - 我心动了
  8. Boys like Girls ft Taylor Swift - Two is Better than One
  9. 品冠 ft 梁静如 - K 歌情人
  10. 阿信 ft 叮当 - 走火入魔

I choose 对你有感觉to be the 1st on because of the lyrics...for me, it is so meaningful.^^
And the melody, every song is so nice!! (suitable for my taste of songs..haha)
At the end, I realised that there are 3 Michale's songs!
I swear that there was no previous arrangement for that...


^^ hope one day I also can sing any of these with another lo^^ haha


Ohya, my dream while I was small was to become a singer..haha
(no connection at all =.=")

Too happy my video is done!!^^
Nitez!! :P
>.<