To My Friend....

I have a very good friend.
She has a blog.
Her posts are emotional.
Through her posts, I know that,
she cries, she is sad, she is being depressed, and she is angry.
Her songs sound sad.
The image at her blog has a emotional phrase.

People leave comments.
People encourage her.
She didn't share her problems, at least not in public...

Her blog is the place where she releases herself.
I guess she only writes a post when she's not feeling right.
I hope so actually
So that means she is fine at the other moments.
I also hope ,
that after she writes her post, she will feel better, will feel the best.

She is that kind of girl:
"If I tell people, they will feel sad also..."
She is that kind of girl:
"Just leave me alone..."
But,
I believe she prefers a listener, she prefers someone can share with her.
I believe too,
that she is tough, outside and inside
Perhaps she needs an outsider's force to give her more strength.

I don't know what to do,
every time after I read her posts,
but hope that the time will heel her pains.

I don't know what to write,
at the comments box,
but hope that she will accept the encouragements with the heart open freely.

I don't know what else to say now,
but just hope that
after she reads this,
she will think more positively,
she will be more optimist,
she won't think that I wanna forbid her from expressing her feelings.
and,
she will be fine, and wont get mad...

Take care! and promise that you'll be fine and good, physically and emotionally...

To my dad

Suddenly remember of this song, a very old song, but its ever green. Its from a movie 《搭错车》(Papa, can you hear me)

The synopsis of the movie is: A mute old man, who picks the bottles of beer and sells it as the job. He lives with a so-called wife. One day, he sees a baby girl at the bushes and decides to take care of her as his own daughter. But, his wife feels that the baby has taken her place and the man doesn't care about her as much as before. So, she left him, with the baby. When the girl has grown up, she becomes a well-known singer, and she has used a fake family background to cover the reel and "unnoticeable" truth that she is dumped and grown up by a mute father. When she has a performance, her dad has a heart-attack. But, she doesn't get the chance to see him and talk to him the last time.

So, here comes this song, saying that:

Without you, who am I? It's you, who has grown me up. It's you, who has gave me a home. It's you, who has gave me lots of care. It's you, who has accompanied me to say the first word( which is papa). I can't forget the voice(which is the music that produced by the old man with the bottles), that I listen everyday in my life. When can I sing it again with you?

*酒干倘卖无 (pronounce in Hokien "jiu gan tang boei bo")
means after finished the beer, let's collect the bottle. That's the reflection of the old man's life.

Hope that those haven't watch this movie, quick! Enjoy it now! I'm sure that you won't regret, even though the tears will accompany you at the end of it...

Me, I have watched it for so many times, but later I'll watch it again...
Miss my dad, muacks!!

Best moments ever...5A10

To the memories of 5a10...





It takes a few seconds to be a friend,

but it takes a long time to be an old, true friend...

中秋节快！

Thought wanna write in Chinese, cause the its mooncake festival, but then lazy to type in Chinese..so..

Mooncake festival is always fall on the 15/8, according to the chinese calender. For this year, its 3/10.

I love mooncake festival! I don't know why, sometimes I love it more then I love Chinese New Year.

Perhaps its because less people take it seriously as CNY, so I hope I can change it. Please remember that mooncake festival is to be family, always together, united like the full moon.

And of coz! I love mooncakes more then I love new year cakes..^^

I had lotza memories on this festival. Last time, I took part in the celebration at "fou tang", we performed, guess the "deng mi", walked around the city with lanterns all together. The happiest thing is my family also support the celebration, so I can celebrate with my friends, as well as my family...^^

Later, when I was f3, mooncake festival was at the same day as my last day of PMR. But as I had to guide the sales of mooncakes in school, so, I was kinda busy with the mooncakes n my PMR. I still remember my friend's words," now when I looked at you, I think of the mooncake only..."
And the story hasn't end. After the last paper of PMR, which was Chinese, my sister fetched my back from school for the 1st time!!^^ Then, we straight away went to buy the lanterns and all...at night, we decorated our house's garden with all the lanterns, and we ate mooncakes and the "bao bei bing" together with the full moon in the sky...

But since f4, my sis went to UK already...we can't celebrate it all together anymore...I was kinda sad...and I think, that's the problem why my mum didn't make the moon cakes that year...and we didn't actually the mooncakes. Those were the presents from others. Not to be rude, but they don't taste as nice as my mum did...That year, I was kinda down, and there was no full moon in the sky, the moon was covered by the evil clouds..

Last year, I've insisted my mum to make moon cakes. Luckily and gratefully, my mum did!! I just love it!! but my poor sis couldn't taste it...But last year, I played the lanterns alone, I decorated the garden alone, I looked at the full moon alone...(fine, Angie was beside me) And that was during the trial, and I was holding the notes..Grateful, but lonely moon cake festival..

This year, I'm destined to celebrate it alone....no mooncake, no family, only the full moon, which is not so beautiful as in PD...
My mum said she wont make the moon cakes this year, because only 3 of them, no mood...
My poor mum....

Thought during this festival, we must be the family, but why I can't?

如果你还爱我-光良

Lyrics

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
I left with a tired heart

我知道自己在你心里已不重要
I know that I'm not important anymore in your heart

虽然我们曾经相聚过
Even though we had it all

也许对于你来说
perhaps for you

已经没有什么值得回忆
There's no more any worthy memories

我带着一颗沉重的心走了
I left with a heavy heart

我知道自己没有勇气道别离
I know that I don't have the courage to say goodbye

虽然我们曾经拥有过
Even though we had it all

但是对于你来说
But for you

已经没有什么值得回忆
There's no more any worthy memories

难道早以注定
Is it already destined?

不能真正拥有你
That I can't really have you?

难道我真心付出一切
Is it after I sacrifice all

只为了承受孤单和寂寞
only to handle loneliness

我知道你不敢对我坦白
I know that you scared to be honest with me

是不要看到我的伤怀
it's because you don't want to see my sadness

虽然你没有说要离开我
Even though that you never said you want to leave me

我已经感到你不再属于我
I already felt that you're not mine anymore

如果你还爱我
If you still love me

你不会对我如此的冷漠
You won't treat me coldly

又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
and you couldn't let me strolling alone in the night

如果你还爱我
If you still love me

你不会对我如此的冷漠
You won't treat me coldly

我只能含着眼泪
I can only be with my tears

默默的离开
and leave you lonely and silently...

:(

I'm just a little girl, who needs family and friends.

I miss my life, which was carefree and happy.
I miss my life, which was fulfilled with humanity and love.
I miss my life, which was much more easier than now.

I know we have to grow up, to learn to face the problems in our life.
I know we have to grow up, to make ourselves be tougher.

But now, I'm sick of facing the laptop everyday.
I'm sick of facing the 4 walls everyday.
I'm sick of my life circle is smaller now.
Why?

That's not the one that I want.

I want my friends, I want my family, I want the life that I had before.

I just want that..not much more.

But its so hard, and it can never be true...

The Most Romantic

Hold the hands gently, but firmly....

Hold in the embrasse, and whisper softly by the ear...

Playing a piano, and sing a love song...

Walk by your side, not in front, not behind, but just nice...

When the eyes meet, the smiles are for each other...

Have a walk at the garden, lay down on the field...