Tuesday, June 11, 2013

12 hours flight

12 hours in a plane sounds long, and it would be longer if we take the flight alone.  But for me, I am kind of “used to it”, so here am I in an A380, made in France plane, going back to Malaysia with MAS. My flight has been delayed due to a “bombardment” of a suspicious luggage left without surveillance at Charles de Gaule Airport, and we were blocked for 1 hour without any explication. With 1 hour gone, I doubled up my walking speed in the airport to check in, to go through the passport control and boarding control.  Luckily, I managed to get on board.
Sitting on my seat, I start to flip the flight magazine and wonder what movies I am going to watch. But for the first time, I feel sad to leave France and less excited to go back home. There are things that I miss here; there is a life that I’ve built. Of course I miss Malaysia and the people there as well, let’s make it clear. How am I going to handle the situation after two years, where I will leave for good? Aww, I just hate separation. Why these two countries couldn’t just combine themselves?
While my mind is flying here and there, the plane takes off successfully. The sky outside is blue enough and the buildings and cars are getting smaller and smaller. I start my marathon of movies with “Cars”, an animation movie that I thought I would never watch but changed my mind by a friend. Not sure if the ending is that touching or it’s because I am being emotional with all these separation stuffs and all, my tears flow out like the pipe water. I wonder what the French girl who is beside me thinks, but I couldn’t care more.
Did I mention the lunch we had was disappointing? I was expecting something Malaysian to choose but we only had beef with potatoes or chicken with pasta. I mean, at least they can add in a 3rd option with something sambal or rendang. Anyway, the service is good overall, shouldn’t have complaints on the hospitality of the crew.
I continue my marathon with “Life of Bugs” and “Populaire”. I choose to watch “Populaire” simply because I need and want to hear something French. I must say that I am troublesome. While I am in France, I watch and listen to English or Chinese or Malay because I think I have enough French. But when I am out of France, I just scared to disconnect and become unrelated with it. That explains the little joy in my heart when I see French people, French word, hear a conversation in French or anything French, while I am out of France, of course.
Then, I begin to watch “The Dangerous Liaisons”, an American movie based on the French book “Les Liaisons Dangereux”. But I can’t finish it as we are about to land soon. So I turn it off and concentrate on my breakfast, a deformed nasi lemak. I am disappointed once more. The first local meal for tourists is the meal provided by airlines, so shouldn’t MAS prepare something more likely to be Malaysian? I now have a conclusion, AirAsia’s meals are better than MAS’s. But I still have a little hope on my return flight 3 months later.
During the flight, I didn’t get to have enough sleep. It is 7am in Malaysia (1am in France), I think I am going to have a good day sleep later at home. The pilot then speaks, ”Kepada pelancong-pelancong, selamat datang ke Malaysia. Kepada anak-anak Malaysia, selamat kembali ke tanah air. ” I’m home! And there is a sigh and a smile in my heart…

I step out my foot from the plane and a warm, humid breeze welcomes me. This is it, I’m home. J

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I realise that i like to bla bla bla a lot on my blog, and sorry for those who read my blog, got to read all those meaningless bla bla bla written in my style (not a proper english or rojak)

And it has been a long time i didn't bla about my exams n all,  but i did it alot in real life actually. but now i wanna talk bout it here now.

I really hate making careless mistakes, cause they are the stupidiest mistakes for me, and i did a lot of them in my entire student life. Worse, when it will influence directly the results. Worse, when the prof looks only the results without checking your steps. Today, i did several =.= gek sim!!! more gek sim than normally cause i did crack my head to find out the method to answer the question but mistakes while doing calculations~just hope the prof wont be so heartless, will give marks for my steps as well la.

haih, whatever la, many exams to go. jia you!

Monday, May 20, 2013

Keep thinking about it recently, when i wake up in the morning, while i'am walking, while i am eating, while i'm trying to study, when i am about to sleep... and i cant get rid of it. Gosh, i'm haunted!

Sunday, April 21, 2013

So many problems : exams, internship, next year internship, move house, sell furniture, find house, mum n dad's europe trip etc. Hope everything will turn out smoothly la.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

真想找个洞,哗啦啦把所有的东西都吐出来><><><><><>

Monday, March 11, 2013

I always think that if someone is willing to tell you anything about himself/herself, no matter if it's the slightest or the most important thing, it means that you actually mean something to him/her, and not just a normal friend or an acquaintance. And it seems like a recognition, an acceptance, and it feels good.
Otherwise, it feels horrible. Especially when you care about that person. 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013



"Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You gotta get up and try"

I am shocked by my dream last night. I need time. This cycle keeps repeating, and this is so not good for my health.(I am getting old every year~~) If and only if you knew what is in my mind~